After all the sad news so far im glad to finally give some decent news

I finally confessed to a girl i like and now we're talking ,It started with me getting the guts to talk to her and since school is almost over i said fuck it why not buy her a chocolate and if she rejects me i can take it but while getting psyching i felt an overwhelming force of embarrassment but she was so nice reasurring me that it's fine so we talked for a bit, after a while we went on our way but my classmates encouraged me to get a pic with her and this ended with me asking if we could talk more, So it's been a few days but i think i'll ask her to walk with me to get to know her more.

this is the only place i can express myself

i want to say sorry to my parents im a huge disappointment and im sorry i can't ever make you proud all i have done is be a burden im sorry i can't be like her someone who's able to make use of your kindness im just a leech iwish i could just disappear for your best i want to be the best for you but i know i can't i never will bei love you so much but actions speak louder than words and i haven't shown my love and respect enough i know you will never see my like you see her

do not read

I can't handle it anymore i have way too much things to do in such little time i feel like im about to explode with all the things i need to get done but im sure after this there will be even more things that i need to do, why did i even sign up for this why don't i just stop and end it all every day i wake up knowing that im ruining my life with my actions and that i can't fix them with how i am and this entire rant is pointless since there are others who can do these things i bitch about easily i don't know what to do anymore i feel like a spoiled child whining about things that are insignificant, the only reason im writing this is to let it all out since this is my only safe space where i can express myself without others judging me and with the protection of this being this being a part of myself that no one will ever know and see who i really am

all of this is just a way to scream away my problem don't read this since it would just feel like a child complaining since i couldn't give any effort to putting care in my grammar whatsoever im just overwhelmed but i'll be fine i think

Hello just wanted to tell y'all that i might not be online for a while due to this

until i can fix this i don't think i'll be doing anything for a while